Had an interesting night...

So i was at Adrians house tonight and was really wanting to see Austin...That boy hasnt been off my mind. It sucks that he leaves soon. I feel like i shouldve spent more time with him. Well he came over and it was kindaaaaaa awkward at first because we werent really doing anything. But he showed Adrian some little fighting moves and ALMOST killed me!!! I will never volunteer again...Although some of those little positions were very kinky. i'd do him. Like he was on top for a while...i could totally get used to that. haha. god im a dirty thinker:P Anyways after a while we ended up just laying there...it was kinda perfect. Adrian fell asleep. thank god. haha. He's got like...the perfect arms. The kidd is pretty in shape if i must say. He showed me his tattoos too:) Dayuuuummm..that is all. He really makes me wanna date him. The best part of tonight was the fact that he slow danced with me outside. It was freezing cold and this boy is trying to dance with me in the middle of the street. NEVER in my life has a guy wanted to dance with me in the street. he seems too perfect and it's bothering me that i can't figure him out.

this is gettin oldddd

Ok so me and Clint just ARENT going to work. He thinks i will ruin his life if i break up with him. When he can break up with me for that fucking blond headed bitch. I just dont feel the same way about him anymore. I can't be with him and lie to his face about wanting to be with him. People change. I've changed. I dont wanna be with him anymore. I wanna grow up already. We had our fun in High School. And thats all we're ever gonna be is a high school relationship. I deserve so much better and i know that i can do way better. Chris and Clint hate me for dumping each of them and Chris isnt talking to me. He thinks im crazy. Well...i guess i am. Idk. I need to break up with him soon...i can't sit here and lie to him...lead him on. It's not who i am.

State Fair

Soooo the CRAZIEST thing happened today. Clint and i went to the fair because we were bored and stuff. And guess who i run into. Austin Kidd! What are the flippin odds? How weird...He's supposed to be in Seattle...i THOUGHT. Idk when he got back. I didn't really expect him to see me. Let alone know my name. or even REMEMBER ME! haha. I heard someone call my name and i turn around and i see this super sexy hunk of a man..lol. No seriously. This guy is SMOKIN. He was cute on skype. And like...in person....he's cute. AND sexy. ha. I wrote him saying how it was weird seeing him at the fair. He seems nice:) Although Clint wasnt too happy that i hugged him and i barely knew him. But who cares..this guy was too cute. And he's really nice from when i've talked to him. No harm in hugging a future friend:) Anywho the fair was ok. Clint made me eat really weird shit. Like gator. WHO the FUCK eat's gator? i mean damn what's wrong with Chicken and Beef........lol anywhooooooo ive had a long day and i wanna sleep:) GOOOOD NIGHTT