What do i do?

I can never catch a break. First Rachel then Evan. I can't get Evan to leave me alone...He's mad that i don't wanna date him. I'm sorry? I mean he needs to get the hint. I've been so stressed...Chris always wants to help with him...but i don't need help. He did hit me the last time i saw him, and he did threaten to kill...which scares me. Chris thinks i'm not realistic. I may not be realistic but i do know how to take care of myself. I have faith in everything i do, which is the only way i get through everything. Chris doesnt have faith in me. He doesnt believe i can do this...I can take care of myself...i can make this go away..he just needs to let me do this by myself. It's my problem, not his. Why doesn't anyone ever understand this?

Will's MAC:)

So today i went to Will's house. Chris was working:( again. We did pretty much nothing. Except play on his MAC. The webcam effects are really fun. I could've probably sat there all day and be completely entertained:)

oh em gee.:)

Chris asked me out:)
About fucking time:)
I'm bouncing off walls.....:)
He's perfect.
Just perfect.

4th of July:)

So i invited Chris to come over for the fourth:) We hung out yesterday and went to watch fire works:) It was seriously PERFECT. We sat on top of his car and everything. Lol. But anyways he met my family, and baby john:) We also went to watch fire works...kinda at the school. Didn't work out very well but i didnt care...i just liked being next to him. He was very good with my nephews:) I think they liked him. I find myself just watching him and how he acts sometimes. I cant figure out his story. I wish i could. I wish i knew what about him, that makes me like him so much. He's just a caring guy. Which is exactly what i need. Although over the years i've learned not to let anyone know me too well...and not get too close to anyone...hopefully i can let him in. Today was amazing:) I def. see myself being happy with this guy.

My Baby is all grownn:D

So baby John came into town this week!! I got to spend a whole week with him! :) He is the biggest cutie i've ever seen:) I dunno what i'd do without that kid:) He's got my heart, thats for sure. We took him to the pool and i took pictures of him:D He's a very happy baby. And i never ever ever see him upset or sad. If i ever have kids, i hope they are just like him. Then everything would be perfect:) I remember when he was little tiny baby, couldnt walk or talk or anything. But eat, sleep, and make poopies. :) Ima steal him;) He will be mine:) haha.
Baby John<3 I love him:)