hmm its been a while.

I'm usually really good at keeping up to date with my blog. Lately, not so much. There's been so much going on it's UNREAL. The last couple of weeks have been hell. And probably the worst in a long time. I've had to deal with almost all of Carl's friends thinking im cheating on him. I had to deal with the fact i basically failed at life. My dream is no longer my dream. My best friend basically doesnt talk to me anymore. Isn't that great? ha, not. Its been so freakin overwhelming lately that i havent been on the best terms with everyone. I dont really care that much any more. I want out of this stupid shit.